CRY OF THE MOTHER GODDESS.
Oh, how my heart groans!
Again I see chains on you, my God.
Windows and doors are closed –
I'm standing as a beggar, I'm knocking - no one open,
And when I'm looking in the window -
more tightly the doors get locked.
But where is Faith? Where is love here on Earth?
The tear on my cheek.
You cry, my Lord? Don"t cry!
I will try. I Make every effort,
But I will find in the heaps of trash
and dirty rags your Children
And I will dress them in the clothes of light!
And what about those who wear white clothes
And hiding dirt of their soul from Your eyes?
But, Lord, you watching All
And You are showing them to me without clothes!
I will protect those whom I can and these,
Will cleanse the dirt of their souls with dew of Yours,
And You will see them clean,
Without fears and doubts.
I love You much!
Please Open their eyes and let them see the Light!
I know it hurts.
I am ready to share their pain,
And ease their sufferings.
Though I'm here a beggar!
And the lepered by Your Light!
But I'm with You, and You with me in heaven.
Not for myself I beg the alms of love,
Not for myself I'm ready give away all these
What You been giving me with generouse hand!
All these for You, my God!
You - my unspoken love!
Removing all obstructions,
A lot of trash of knowledge
of the mind accumulated here!
How do you breathe, my Goddess?
When trash is burned, then darkness reigns –
But I go, breathe and believe -
Soon this trash will burn.
And stench will disapear as a smoke.
The Love is not a beggar - but Queen!
And all will see! And World will bow before Your Wisdom!
That happen! I Believe!
You not a victim now!
You are not killed - you resurrected,
and affirming life!
I am Your vessel and will become as ashe,
And from the ashes I will rise and ruin walls.
And will unite with Thee, my Lord!
I will not leave You to the mercy of animals.
I will donate you to those who need,
So brightness of Live would cleans the fog and stench.
And dogs, jackals, all burn in Your Great fire!
The nations come to You,
And they shall bow before Thy Throne.
And You, through me, forgiving them, O my Lord,
And You inviting all to feast of love and peace.
And this shall be our wedding.
And I Connect with You through dawn will know.
I will become Your Wife and bring You in my womb
The new great nation –
Thus - children of light, get out!
Yes, so great the torments of that birth!
How great the joy would be!
Through my new soul You will convey the Love,
And Word will be the God.
Oh God, the dragon saw new birth.
And wants to eat my baby.
Hide me in desert of my days,
I'm not afraid of him, but pray to You -
Save all who was with me.
Do not give them to the dragon's maw,
They are so innocent, they are don't know.
They are my baby
And the future nation.
A lot them! How great my womb is!
But ancient serpent stands in front of my Univerce,
And he is waiting and wants to eat my baby.
Not giving! Hide behind my body.
Already now I have some losses,
Let me, my God, not lose now anyone
Let this bastard torment his own body!
How sweet your truth was!
And shone as juice of ripenef berry
it shone on lips of mine.
With bitterness it groans now in my soul!
A lot of agony and pain Your Truth brings
In Soul of my creation –
But hour of birth is near,
I shall wait patiently.
I know - that will be time of liberation.
It is so big and scary!
But it will rescue bring.
SO BE IT!
Author: Maria Lilith Karpinskaya. 1995.
Translated into English: Maya Nikolaeva