Oh, how my heart groans!
Again, I see chains on you, my God.
Windows and doors is closed –
I'm standing as beggar, I'm knocking - do not open,
And when I'm looking through the window, you are doing more tightly locked doors.
But where is Faith? Where there is love here on earth?
Teardrop on the cheek of my own,
Are You crying, Lord? Do not cry!
I will try. I Make every effort,
But I'll find thy children in heaps of trash and dirty rags,
And I will clothe theirs in pure light clothing.
And what they do who wear white clothes,
in order to hide the dirt of their soul from Your eyes?
But, Lord, you all see!
And You are showing them to me without clothes!
I’ll protect those whom I can and even theirs –
I will cleanse the dirt in they soul by Your dew,
And You will see them clean,
Without fears and doubts.
I love You so much!
You Open them eyes, let them see the Light!
I know it's hurts.
I am ready together with them to endure theirs pain,
And to alleviate them suffering.
Though I'm here a beggar!
And the leper with Thy Light!
But I'm with You, and You with me in heaven.
Not for myself, I beg alms of love,
Not for myself, I was ready to hand everything
What Your hand generously was gave me!
All for to Thee, my God!
You are my inexpressible love!
Remove all obstructions,
How much trash of knowledge of the mind has accumulated here!
As you breathe, my Goddess?
When trash is burned, then darkness reigns –
But I go, breathe and believe -
Soon this trash will have burned down,
And the stench will have dispersed away like smoke.
Not beggar Love - Queen!
You will see everything! And the world
In front of yours wisdom will worship
So it will be! I Believe!
Now You don't be sacrifice!
You are not killed by - resurrected, and affirms life!
I am the vessel Thy, I'll ashes,
From the ashes I will rise from the deads and I will ruin the walls.
And I'll have unity with Thee, O my Lord!
I will not give You at the mercy of the dogs.
I will give love to for those in need
In order of the lights of love will disperse the fog and the stench.
And dogs, jackals, will be all burned in the fire Your Great!
To thee the Gentiles shall come,
And will do bows before Thy Throne.
And Thou, O Lord, will forgiving them inside me,
And You invites everyone to a feast of love and peace.
And this will be our wedding.
And I will have experiences of my soul by alliance with thee.
I will Thy Wife and I will give to You in my womb
The great, new and young peoples –
This - the children of light, get out of my womb!
Yes, my creative torments are very large,
Also there will be great joy!
Through my new creations Thou will convey the Love,
And the Word will become God.
God, the dragon saw a new birth.
And wants to eat my baby.
Hide me in the desert of my days,
I'm not afraid of him, but I pray to You -
Save everybody those who were with me.
Do not give their in maw of dragon,
They are innocent and they don't knows.
They - it's my baby
And my the future peoples.
How many them! How great is my womb!
But the ancient serpent stands in front of this womb,
And he has waiting and he wants to eat of my baby.
I'm will not give him! I will be hide my baby behind my body.
Already now I have some lost,
Let me, God, will not lose now no one
Let this bastard will torment my body!
How sweet was your truth!
As the juice of ripe berries, it shone on my lips.
With what bitterness it now groan in my womb!
How much agony and pain, Your Truth brings
In the womb of my creations –
But the hour of birth is near,
I will wait patiently.
I know - this is a moment of liberation.
He is so big and so scary!
But only he will bring all the rescue.
SO BE IT!
Author: Maria Karpinskaya. 1996.